Journey of Two

It was evening, and I was not getting any better control over my breathing or heart rate... it was just getting worse as the sun fell further and further away. I think I have realized I am dealing with symptoms of ptsd myself, with a variety of possible causes. I just never admitted it. I was living alone, caring for my kids and doing a horrible job of it on this day. Overtaken by anxiety, I called for some relief. My husband and I were living apart and searching for our own healing, when I asked him to come by and help he was more than happy to. But, instead of divided physical labor to just get kid stuff done, he came over with a heart open for me. Once the children were taken care of he suggested we go for a walk outside, and when we returned he taught me his knowledge of Tai Chi. We practiced breathing and moves together, and slowly my shoulders began to drop slightly while my mind calmed. Afterwards we sat on the back deck, then I realized- I felt so much better. Who would have thought? His capacity to share opened my eyes to new possibility, and I felt cared for...